Magic

"We should love, not fall in love. Because things that fall get broken." 

-Taylor Swift-

I know I said I probably wouldn't blog soon. But here I am. Random thought: Love seems really scary. To me anyway. If love was put in my hand I would probably look like this: 

"What am I supposed to do with it?"

People say love is the best thing on Earth. I think it's the strangest thing on Earth. It's such a mystery and even though I love mysteries, this particular mystery seems WAY too overwhelming. 

Also, notice how fairy tales are usually associated with love? (e.g. true love breaks the spell.) Another quote by the lovely Taylor Swift:

"When I was a little girl i used to read fairy tales. In fairy tales you meet Prince Charming and he's everything you ever wanted. In fairy tales the bad guy is very easy to spot. The bad guy is always wearing a black cape so you always know who he is. Then you grow up and you realize that Prince Charming is not as easy to find as you thought. You realize the bad guy is not wearing a black cape and he's not easy to spot; he's really funny, and he makes you laugh, and he has perfect hair."

Which brings me to something I've been wondering about - how the hell do you tell the difference between the "bad guy" and "Prince Charming"? Doesn't seem easy at all to me. Doesn't seem simple at all to me. Doesn't seem safe at all to me. 

But then, Taylor also said something else:

"To me, Fearless is not the absence of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, Fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death."

And so, I have a confession to make. I am deathly, utterly, completely afraid about being in love. Not the family love or the puppy love, or the love you have for friends. But love which is mistaken for love that binds two people together for the rest of their lives. 

It's hard to keep yourself from getting hurt. Things change, people change, feelings change. All I can say is, I was warned and my guards will be up.